Tuesday, October 15, 2013

DAM

Day 39: Oct. 14, 2013

Being busy as a bee is totally overrated. I'm too busy to remember if busyness is a virtue. At least actual bees are busy in only one task. Do people make themselves busy in order to do good in the world, or are they in fact trying to fill a vast empty hole in their hearts. Whatever it is, being busy is a pain in the ass. I'm thinking I would like to be less busy.

But here's the problem. I'm busy 100% by choice. I have a husband who is busy feeding and clothing his family. What do I do? "Stay at home" with my kids. (Why do we call ourselves, "stay at home" moms? I don't stay at home. I'm always going out. I"m always driving the kids somewhere for this activity or that activity. From now on, I'm calling this position a drive around mom, a DAM) And here's the other problem. As much as I love (and feel so fortunate about) "staying home" with my kids, I would spiral into a pit of boredom and despair without secondary activities which engage other aspects of my personality.

Oh dear. There is no resolution. Especially when the activities I have chosen to engage in are fun and time consuming. And I also like to speak with my husband every once in a while and see my friends without my children. Well,that's just asking too much. Those two might have to go. That could work. No adult conversation except with myself while writing and painting, or while I'm practicing my violin.

The thing is, I don't think this busyness issue is reserved only for parents of young children. Today I saw several very relaxed looking people walking their dogs and began to drool in existential jealousy. But then I remembered, I had a dog once. And I used to be so busy that walking him was often a massive burden. And I would be wondering why I kept this creature around only to feel simultaneously burdened and guilty. This paragraph is not helping whatsoever. I know. I don't need to sleep. Maybe its really sleep that's overrated. Ok, that's good. No adult conversation, and no sleep. I think I've resolved today's dilemma.

Coffee: I had some green tea on the way to my son's music class. And some killer dark chocolate after my daughter's violin lesson.

Cups and Bags Challenge: I had the best text message today! It was a picture of a coffee cup in use at a reader's (at least I think this person is a reader,) place of work, so that's $1 for Bring! Now we're up to $37.
If you use a reusable cup to buy a drink, email me here: cupsandbags@yahoo.com, and I'll send a dollar to Bring Recycling!

Watercolor:



(The sky got lost in the scanner. Maybe tomorrow I'll photograph this one.)






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