Day 47: Oct. 21, 2013
While driving to a lake that had no water in it, I was complaining about the fog. I had thought the sun was coming out, but as we drove down the highway, the sun was gone. I know this about myself, that I am an over-reactor. The fact that the sun was out, then gone gave me that it’s over, let’s go home, feeling. But then, from the back seat came this little voice. “It’s ok, Mommy. Fog is pretty, too.”
For a multitude of reasons this comment hit me like a ton of bricks. For one thing, I hadn’t realized I was complaining audibly. I thought I had been disguising my grumpiness with cheery banter, but the “where’d the sun go,” comment obviously slipped out. As did my grumptastic attitude. The other thing is that I suddenly felt so grateful that here was this relatively new person in my life who was willing to cheer me up, and she did, almost immediately.
I think it’s important for me to remember what it felt like to be a kid, driving somewhere with my parents. First off, just having the two of them there together was enough. It didn’t matter where we were going, what we were doing, or what the weather was. And I never understood what there was to be grumpy about if in fact grumpiness was in the air. I don’t remember it bothering me in particular, unless it involved being lost in the middle of nowhere and my parents struggling with maps and becoming increasingly frustrated. I would start to scan the side of the road for a good place to sleep for the night. See, I told you, an over-reactor.
Over the last month or so, we’ve said good bye to the person my daughter was and hello to this new person. She’s become so wise and willing to go with the flow. It’s like she molted and she’s showing off a new set of feathers that are glistening through the fog. And consequently, penetrating the fog in my mind. She has no idea. She’s just being a kid, glad to have her mommy and daddy taking her out for an adventure. But for me, it’s enough to make me stop and feel grateful for her. And glad she’s around. And glad for lots more time (before she becomes a teenager) to learn from her.
Coffee: No coffee cups bought today. I had some in the car on the way to town. This is a nice time to have coffee, but being able to sit and read, or watch a spider while drinking coffee is better. Maybe I’ll strive for this a few times a week.
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